Hey all! A lot has gone on in the past few weeks… life has changed radically and I’ve gone through many ups and downs. Mostly a lot of downs which has led to a much higher ‘up’ than before. (When I say ‘up’, I mean new clarity and awareness). I’ve gone through a period where a lot of inner and outer purification has gone on (and it’s continuing), which has resulted in a lot of old emotions, mental programming, unhealthy beliefs and such being uncovered and dealt with. It was a very tumultuous time and I made some pretty unhealthy choices while going through it. I had what some might call a bit of a mental and emotional breakdown.

However, I have gotten through it to the other side. As a result, I’ve made some changes in my life. In addition to my usual daily meditation, concentration and visualization exercises, (on the suggestion of an enlightened spiritual teacher) I’ve added in some spiritual purifying rituals. One of them involves taking an hour-long bath every day (which I’m still easing into). I never realized before now that such long baths truly purify not only your body but your mind and energy body (aura) as well. It also brings up old emotions to heal and seriously detoxes the body. I am also doing fire purification, which (since I do not have a fireplace) involves me sitting near several candles for at least an hour a day. Breathing exercises and outdoor walks (which I am kind of slacking on) are part of the mix as well. So basically, it’s earth (exercise), water (bath), fire (candles) and air (conscious breathing) purification, which is fabulous for body, mind and spirit.

What these practices also do is raise your spiritual and overall vibration much higher. In response to this and also the emotional clearing that has occurred in the past few weeks, my body has suddenly become kind of intolerant of certain foods, one being meats of all kinds… even fish seems to cause problems, unfortunately! Sugary and/or really fatty foods cause issues as well. I have however been eating dairy again, mainly organic cottage cheese. To be honest it also doesn’t seem to work overly well with my body. It has once again been intuitively suggested that I completely abstain from dairy. For some reason one of my favorite ‘light’ meals right now is organic cottage cheese with organic wild blueberries mixed in and a large serving of steamed broccoli on the side. I am willing to remove dairy from my diet, however, have not taken the steps to do so.

So yes, I completely went off the plan listed in the previous post. I did not exercise the will power and discipline, basically, to carry it through for more than a few days. I honestly and openly admit that I am still working on improving will and discipline. It’s one of my main life karmic lessons, so it hasn’t been easy!

I am now assigned two consecutive fruit days in my metaphysics class, which are either Wednesday and Thursday or Thursday and Friday. During my emotional and mental ‘breakdown’, I had trouble sticking to the fruit days. I was literally eating fast food, cheese and other comfort foods like they were going out of style. I gained maybe 3 pounds back.

Overall, there hasn’t been a resolution to my food or weight situation – yet. I am trying to focus more on the spiritual aspect of things and causing healing, purification and wholeness in my life. That’s one reason I haven’t been around to update here as much lately. It seems the more I focus on food and diet, the more it is an issue.

I hope to one day find a resolution and be able to share it with others! As for now, I hope everyone is enjoying the holiday season! Be back soon to update.